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[21 Aug 2006|07:55pm] |
Hey guys. i posted a link to my recordnerd and you guys had some requests... Ive been busy getting started with school but i didnt forget about you... Here is the Requested Matisyahu...Live At Stubbs
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=NILJO8Y9
Enjoi
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[21 Jan 2005|12:52am] |
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All this time I havent been able to contain my excitement when it comes to the idea of leaving the house and getting out on my own. Tonight I realize that that is the most assinine aspiration I could ever Push towards. Read this next passage and see what I mean:
Upward Oveer the Mountain- Iron and Wine
"mother don't worry, i killed the last snake that lived in the creek bed
mother don't worry, i've got some money i save for the weekend
mother remember being so stern with that girl who was with me?
mother remember the blink of an eye when i breathed through your body?
so may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
sons are like birds flying upward over the mountain
mother i made it up from the bruise of a floor of this prison
mother i lost it, all of the fear of the Lord i was given
mother forget me now that the creek drank the cradle you sang to
mother forgive me, i sold your car for the shoes that i gave you
so may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
sons are like birds flying upward over the mountain
mother don't worry, i've got a coat & some friends on the corner
mother don't worry, she's got a garden we're planting together
mother remember the night that the dog had her pups in the pantry?
blood on the floor & the fleas on their paws
and you cried 'til the morning
so may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
sons are like birds flying upward over the mountain"
Just reading this makes me realize all the simple pleasures and experiences in my life that I had once forgotten, and how those days wont return. And how much of an ass I was too want to escape all this. I realize that I wouldnt rather live anywhere but here in Louisiana. I used to laugh at the idea, but now I see all too clear that this is the best place for me. This is where people love me. This is where I feel I belong. This is home.
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[12 Dec 2004|08:57pm] |
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cherish every fucking thing you have
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| We're all lone,dead,domesticated dogs in the end. |
[05 Dec 2004|06:31pm] |
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Iron and Wine - Creek Drank the Cradle |
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WARNING: IF MY CONSTANT OVERANALYZATION ANNOYS YOU, STOP READING NOW.
I was driving home tonight and I passed up a bridge by my house. At the front of it was a dead german shepherd with a bright red collar. This wasn't the first time I had seen it, in fact, it had been there for more than 4 days. Personally, I thought it was pretty sad. This was a beautiful dog. It looked well kept from what I could tell, other than the fact it had been hit. It had a collar which meant that someone once cared for it at least enough to spend money and time on it, but here it was lying at the front of a bridge, and had been for days. You may ask why this was significant to me. Call me crazy, but I believe that we are all like this. Sure, some people (your family included) may act like they care. They might "show" they care with frail actions. You may even feel temporarily fulfilled by some of this, but in the end, whos really there for you in the long run? Will there even be someone who cares enough to burry you when youre dead? or even know youre missing at all?
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[27 Nov 2004|02:52am] |
Just reading Tool lyrics makes me want to cry. not an emo cry, but more of a mourn. you know? just knowing that your human ("to bleed, to feel, to know im alive"). There are some things ive been thinking about ("overthinking, overanalyzing separates the body from the mind"). I dont know if i think of things too much, or beat the dead horse , but when i sit alone in my room, i wonder what life is for. if ntohing is for sure, absolutes are thrown out the window every day, and we lose faith, whats the point? ("Mention this to me Mention something, mention anything... and watch the weather change.")
quote from "Reflection"
I have come curiously close to the end, down
Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole,
Defeated, I concede and
Move closer
I may find comfort here
I may find peace within the emptiness
How pitiful
It's calling me...
And in my darkest moment, fetal and weeping
The moon tells me a secret - my confidant
As full and bright as I am
This light is not my own and
A million light reflections pass over me
Its source is bright and endless
more later.
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[27 Nov 2004|01:46am] |
i love mixed signals. dont you? i love when people tell you things and then take actian that totally goes against what they said. dotn you? i love it.
PS. Fuck all this mediocre photocopied music that everyone is jacking off to. its horrible. and so are all of them.
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[24 Nov 2004|05:17pm] |
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well, i was over reacting and taking the opinion of someone i dont care about too seriously. i have no ties to them. why should it affect me. fuck the drama. journal not deleted
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| No more journal |
[16 Nov 2004|08:28pm] |
Dear "friends," since i dont know the waight of my own words, and this being a journal, i have decided to discontinue its use. If anyone wants to get in touch with me im on aim and you most likely know my number. Thanks,
Cory Jude LaGrange
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| Boredom's not a burden anyone should bare. |
[09 Nov 2004|12:38am] |
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Kaki King - Playing with Pink Noise |
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Seems to me like lately my life has been just going one day at a time, as far as where im going with things. Im so frustrated. Every direction is just anothre series of long drawn out scenarios. School is empty and quite pointless at this time. I feel like theres no reason to be there. Since the beginning of this year, it hasnt benefited me in any way. I havent learned anything profound or remotely invigorating. Isnt that what education is supposed to do? make you want to think? seems like this year, school is doing exactly the opposite. Id rather go spend the entire day in the library or Barnes and noble.
My personal relationships have been skewed as well. i can only really name 5 people id care to be alone with at any point. and thats never been true before. and i dont know where to go with certain things. my heart and head say 2 different things in every situation. can you say tough? Like i always say, i think i overanalyze things. my only pleasures now are music, bookstores, music stores and coffee. idk this is a rough spot in my life. ive never felt so trapped.
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[11 Oct 2004|02:15am] |
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Im still alive. my computer just has lots of bugs... and spyware... and adware. i hate it. alot. but y sn is coryjude3988. im still on that often.
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| Grand Weekend... kinda |
[29 Aug 2004|10:11pm] |
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Dax Riggs - Yesterday |
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Well, this weekend started out alright. I had work. It wasnt too bad. I saw a guy beat up a girl... which was sad.. but funny for some odd reason... cause the girl got in the best hits. plus they were both 11 so thats always funny as well. hahaha. aaaaaanyway, i realised i liek metallica... alot. Sanitarium is now one of my favorite songs.
Saturday i had to wake up at 9 and drive to work. when i got there i had to fix the freakin ice machine while my little 1 year old cousin kept hitting me with the short end of a pool stick. this dude really knows karate. its hilarious. after i got off work at 5:30, i drove home and took a shower then went to a Dance at ASH. i kinda knew where i was goin... but i wasnt sure. the sign said trn right... but i turned left. which was smart. wasnt it? well, i got there about 20 minutes before it started and NO ONE else was there. so i talked to a cop who obviously had never taken an english class in his life. i waited for people to show up while i had some people stare at me for a while. haha. i talked to one girl before it started, i think her name was Jennifer? anyway.. brittany and devon finally showed up!! i got a tour of the gym, a la brittany! we walked around and pimped out ( hahaha. right) . i introduced myself to a few people and ran into someone i hadnt seen in years. we hung around and danced and looked white for a while. it was cool seein everyone again. i dont get to see Brit, devon, joey or will all that often.
After the dance, i drove me joey and will to taco bell. my mom was trppin out. but it was ok. when we got there, i saw like 5 people from work. we talked a while then we went to wills house. i stayed there the night. he has to have the most insane house ever. more details on that later. i fell asleep on clockwork orange. then when we woke up we went to pacantes and all almost threw up. then i dropped them, off at wills house and came home. my mom didnt trip out... then i feel asleep for 4 hours and now im here!!! great weekend.
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[14 Aug 2004|12:45am] |
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im considering the discontinuation of my journal. i dont think anyone reads it or is interested, but, if i get 5 responses to this post ill keep it. just to see if anyone is interested or if im wasting my time.
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| Bad thing... |
[11 Aug 2004|09:06am] |
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Murder By Death- Knife goes in, Guts come out. |
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BAd thing about waking up early...no one else does it.
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| must get out.... |
[10 Aug 2004|10:21am] |
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Belle and Sebastien - Wrapped up in books |
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I have got to get out of this house, especially since school is starting soon. I need a change in my life right now. Maybe returning to school wont be so bad.
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[10 Aug 2004|01:12am] |
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Neutral Milk Hotel - In an Aeroplane Over The Sea |
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Wow. im so confused... and i feel guilty.. even though i shouldnt. i havent done anything. but blegh. not good/cool/right.
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| PART 2! |
[09 Aug 2004|10:24pm] |
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Bonnie Pince Billy - I Am The Sky |
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Figure id kill 2 birds with one stone... for part 2, see the news section of www.destroyedbyfire.com .
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| I HAVE RETURNED! |
[07 Aug 2004|01:04am] |
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Every Time I Die - Romeo A Go Go |
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Well, im back from Ozzfest, and it was amazing. We left on Wednesday around 1 I believe. We had to ride 5 people in a Jeep Cherokee, which is not easy/comfortable. We decided to put the seat down and try to make more room. That worked better but was still uncomfortable, but then again, i dont think anything is comfortable as long as youre in one place for over 7 hours or so. We stopped a couple of times. The first stop was a gas station. it looked more like a holding cell, there were so many bars on the windows. they also had like 4509785 porno magazines out in the back which i thought was quite funny. We got back in the car and drove ALOT more... and then we finally got to the hotel. we were all excited for the next day. we went swim in the hotel pool... which was odd.. but anyway, we went back to our room and showered.. and found soon that our freakinb room was haunted. i had been sitting in a chair facing the window and lookin out the window at the view (which was amazing.. could see a great view of the city). i got out and went to bed and we talked about random stuff for a while... leaving the chair facing the window. so we talked a while and then i turned to the window.. and the chair was moved up and completely around! needless to say, we all shit. haha. and also, we went through like 4 rooms. and our room was the only one with access to the balcony prohibited... also, there were red stains on the chair arm.. and we saw lights accross the pitch black room but ANYWAY... we didnt sleep at ALL the night before ozzfest. which was not a good idea.... and i have to go for now... part 2 soon to follow
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[04 Aug 2004|08:17am] |
LEAVIN FOR OZZFEST MOTHER FUCKER! we saw a purple peacock man with a purple speedo on. it was aawesome. it sodomized Al with a broomstick wrapped with barbed wire. but he only did it out of love. hed never hurt anyone.
back in a few days.
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